My eyesI dwindle in my confusions and vague thoughts without a purpose because I cant judge I am in the middle of what, what am I doing, what should I do and what is my future. Having a real life girl who I find satisfactory and who can carefully make me lead her way of life is the only factor that can give eyes to blind me..and that is why I long for her or whosoever who maybe a match...I have not my own way of leading life, I need my eyes and guidance to live my life.
i wrote a few things on deviant art, dont know they make real scientific sense or even close..I must devise a more effective way to develop and reap my digital art routine that is presently quit missing..I am derailed...detracked..whatever I do I make zero money..
Scattered Aggregateuniverse is a thought and perspective of our own taste
universe is a forever on stationary drama of our own choice..see it as a dance or see it as an apocalypse is our own choice depending upon our material to anti material composition..our positive to negetive balance.
We humans are in fact small forms of God or universal perspective, because we can apart ourselves and mentally witness as a third being observer..
maybe our material mass and composition in the universe is our joint and aggregated universal thought and perspective, its how matter perspects the process of universal play..matter is life, anti matter is death..the play of life and death..contraction and explosion..forever..
Forever DancingTime is the only flowing constant
like witnessing an endlessly silently dancing fairy forever, every interval repeats as the same set of moves, forever..
Repulsion Scatterperhaps black holes explode to big bang..because by then they have digested enough matter to neutralise anti matter to material engulfing
and perhaps when matter is too much more and reaches the balancing threshold, its just liberated in an explosion of repulsion away from the negetive anti matter
They Label Me Stalkerits easy for European girls or women to think that I want their friendship for their body or prospects
while i dont deny those interests totally, still its not my primary motive or conduct, anyway what then a distant friendship means even. I dont know why am I not allowed to even fantasice my dream, the moment i express it I am labelled a stalker.
Sensitive Carefull Artsy PeopleIndia and Europeans are very different
there is no silent protest, symbolic revolutions here
protests or concerns like this can never happen here
because no one understands...
people are not sensitive
people are caught in inexplicable habits
Still BetterI cant change a lot in my life and history
it was always needed, now still, that I should get a better choice to live my life..
My IgnoranceTruth is I dont understand what happens in Europe from such a distance..
maybe all is really terrible...maybe not so much..I dont know what happens with her, and what love I claim from a lost airy internet friendship