Fanatic Insecuremy parents are old, insecure, fanatic, hater, demented, negetive, coward, obsessive paranoid..
being conservative or poor is something else and understandable, but my parents are excessively deterring to common sense..they are psycho of one kind..and clever at it..
Only Obstructionmy parents' entire life revolves around how to obstruct me and stop me from becoming berserk and wander away to west..
they can afford my death but not that possibility of me becoming westernised..
How Sodont know how does europe and america deal with so many multitude of perverted ugly nonwhites all wanting to invade white lands...??
Sight Ofgoing abroad is what everyone dies for here.
most persue the dream of fuck heaven
honest seeking love are hardest trapped
there are many many thought traps evolved here out of people's lust seek of heaven just to delibitate the ones seeking purpose and love..
Rolling Rock Of Shithello what doing hm?
i wanted to give you more graphics
I am surely drunk with something recently
lets say in one tune
I am the greatest artist to live ha ha
he is just a water boy before me
i am like god
i need not even proove it ha ha
all are watching me even shit
millions are watching me
i will be paid in billions ha ha
as you know I can be a great skillsman..lest my lack of imagination because my parents never gave me books or movies
they taunt when i am reading western stuff
i can with some effort and time be a great artist myself
fact is that i am still not
but i can surely be
it will need time and effort in a regular scientific format only
i would have been an artist long back if i was properly guided.
Antinobility InterestsI hate non noble persuation of geting anything demanding the noble kin..they think that they have the price of nobility for granted..
ofcourse people make the army, the country and everything, but what right do they have to demand the high priests daughter? Nobility are also human, and everyone should understand that nobility needs purity of blood...or neither nobility can survive nor the populace, all will be a mess..unless you want to hegemonise a system and for thousands of years bear a junge rule, untill another nobility takes shape, it would be the same...nobility always follows a feudal behaviour and anyway in the world there will be a more higher place to go for common peeople...so why not accept and respect the difference with faith in the noble creation? hm?
Fantasy FeedToo much internet, too much fantasy and art..is a feed that could well lobotomise my mind apart from realiy...and thats what is happening, thats what is intended...untill I talk and expose so much crap in the process that I cant save my shame, and drop fainted and the specialist parasites have got enough of my crap to make a fortune or fun...fucking back in the capes, fondling with my love, while the real fun being my pathetism.
Well, I opted for it..I was told by a carefull woman to go away and keep on developing my art and return back with a solid life backing. But yes, in my agitation and delusion I chose to induce this self dreaming from the carcass fantasy bits these so called friends throw at me. I guess, I would not take a break..while I feel why should I accept defeat and quit first and allow that fucker to win my place..still undermining the possibility that he has got everything and every power to afford her in real life, away from even my dreams in lonely rendevue away from