Showpiece supportee..a deliberate excuse..some desire and the seek of love in it cant go
life is destroyed quite, nearing age of no growth and no time
why world exists to mersmerise me, life full of delusions
I am not writing poem..is it a poem? no.
I was deliberately deluded, was always fool dispicable and who deserves to be kept a fool and toyed with unless a slave of no will
near never came with love, far doesnt like me
a freedom, never knew it
if women are bad, its better to be with a pretty and fascinating one still that being with an ugly that never thinks me someone.
what does it matter..lost the lead to life itself..
I am a toy for proving people's "if confusion" and their "ego"
I am and was always an "excuse" I never lived life with the right of a human living..I was always an excuse and a trick, as that is with what my parents laid their game of life and their so called marriage..without me their team wont have started its ugly game of lies to rule this small portion of white collar facade..I am an excuse..basically.
I have made mistakesI loved petra..ok
but I have made the mistake to treat her online presence like I had a right more than human
alexey how can I undo this
alexey I have made mistakes against my sanity and towards her safety and respect as a girl..
unwanted elements know her now..
she could have just talked back, even briefly, just so that I did not go mad in parting..I meant no annoying, but just her being there..I needed no one else, nor anything extraordinary from her..
Never Againmy computer is my personal store of images from internet..
I dont and will never intend to share any girl's images even with her consent
sometimes in my madness, not with the intention to show off or deviosuly, I commit to pilfer some images..as I have foolishly give some strangers normal pics of my sister and of other friendly online friends perhaps..not knowing what they use it for..
but now I am trying to be myself less fascinated with woman's pretty and Aryan fanatism, as a fool pride only gives other retarded sickos chance to grab some pretty girl's image and who just utilise it for fancy or fuck or money..I have to strictly ban this happening through me, from now and forever..because in any girl, of what a pretty caucasian girl my sister too is, I see in all just a girl like my own sister..whom I love and dont and wont let some pervert abuse her respect even in thought.
Indo family centric SocialismI have a problem
my family and all Indian Aryans are basically Nazi
they have done communist work to suppress ww2 nazis
they have begged from USA to hate them
they have got bored of Russia
now in this era they are again adoring Nazis secretly
because modern Nazis are advanced and kind to Indian Aryans
they know the binds
but Indian Aryan/Brahmin leadership want to utilize India in their own power
they agree with Nazis, as Nazis mean modern culture, fashion, modern mind, no discrimination, easy race respect and Indian Aryan power to Brahmins
that Brahmins quite lacked even with Russians and Slavics
Indian Brahmins abhor Slavic easy women
and rural culture and ass culture
where they neither get equality with communist lords..not power amongst Indian menials
in Slavic leadership all menials live equally and against Brahmins
Nazis respect and want brahmins
Not English, Not USA, not Russia..but Indian Brahmins and Muslim nobility are aiming for Indian cacuasian Aryan front al