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I write one thought that I have heard in the form of a Bengali poem from my grand mother(mothers mother who has always stayed with us):-

"Kaal shagore maatir maanush aashae baandhe maatir ghor."

It means that in the sea of time, humans made of sand make sand castles with expectation/hope.

It is very emotional and philosophical, no one can ever find the extremes of our existence or purpose...but into this world we make homes/dreams of expectations, some remain some collapse.


The pretty girl in my computer class is married, her husband lives and works in saudi arabia. I was dreaming of her, she also studied in my school and passed out as an architect in 2009..alas!

My problems remain the same..my inability to interact socially is grave...I cannot do creative talk with people. Today I sat in computer class from 10 am to 1pm but did not communicate one word either with sir or with students. When I went to college my problem was same, i could not interact at all creatively, could not take fun and specially hindered in talking to girls. I cannot lead a life like this...I wish I never existed but I dont know what all I will have to face! What do you say DD, would I have a happy life?! Would I find love and purpose in my life?!