Life Will Always Cheat MeI am not as skilled or as talented
smart and hard working lucky people can have anything in the world..even herself!!
They Hatemy life problems are all my parents doing..they kept me oblivious...
they hate everything, are nothing and no one...
they hate europeans and european education and culture, becasue they themselves never understood all of it
they hate me, and me wanting to persue european art..they are peopel with hearts as small as pigeon shit..while they act as if they are european in some fake conducts...for example never enlightening me, and giving me up of i did an error..like european parents as if...
europeans themselves are equally lame...everyone knows nothing is my crime.. knows....still....
Just a boyish prankwe say majaak
a lie that tickles
don't Europeans understand a majaak?
for example I played a prank with saying that was my dream project by gsc game world...making a box in 3dsmax, for which they were paying me 9,00,000 dollars
it was a meager prank
further etymologyin sanskrit kshatra means an armour
kshatri means kshatr+ ari = armoured Aryan or warrior
Kshatru means kshatr + aru = armoured animal or enemy
I am wondering that it must not mean armoured Russian
hey, I am not an expert in sanskrit, not even learned beyond highschool optional sanskrit subject...but sometimes many words and their etymology just naturally occur to me, and i see asimilar in all indo european langauges, including the western ones. This there definitely is a bridge.
I always say Europeans are pagans in ancestry
what shutsetymology of the word "shutter";
sanskrit kshatra means a shield, or armour....shutter is from the same root...it means a fragmented armour plate....it actually means a little, or lot more than just "what shuts"...
I Had Pleaded2 years ago i had pleasded to my parents that my mind is coming with many aryan nationalism thoughts..that i want and my reaon of life is to collaborate with whites and form a part of their movement...that i can be a use full guide to whites about india and indian culture and the role of aryan in it. I ahd told my parents that my heart is being called by the white world, there was petra waiting for me. i had said i cant survive nor want to live and love in india.
but my parents did not allow me, they really wanted dog me to be trapped and killed here...Now after writing all this who from India will allow me to go abroad in one piece? the shit regime is not going to understand me. I was just a love with a heart and desire to meet my dearest, and to persue art...i was and am a simple boy with no real hatred for anyone, rather some talks to do with my club who can understand me. I know whites from europe like being denoted respectfully and as Aryan, I wanted to go there and unite my broth
My Familymy family and parents have done all forms of insjustice to me
there is not a single injustuce they ahve left....they never thought i am their only, elder son....i dont know what i reason this with..
all is really ruinedhow bad my parents have been to me cant be expressed, they had enough money to send me for art study and a career.
everything in life has been against me, and now its all ruined...the more i request my sadistic parents for my life, the more they deprive me. What do i do with my life? hna? My parents will just barr me from persuing my dreams..and my dreams have all suffocated and died now. in my frustration i say bad words to you people...i dont mean..but its not a good feeling when no one in the world seems a friend enough. what after all anyone has done for me? ok everyone has to do his own...but parents, they ruined my life. What could i at most expect from foreginers and people who never met me in real life? still you all are Gods to give me time and some compassion. I needed, stil need a life and life guide out of this hell in my real life. Just a computer and internet i have been allowed by home, just to keep me at bay....not to invest on me, nor do something real about my life...
Mangrove treesIts been 20 years. Year 1994 I saw first 2 beauty queen from this country on international platform.
Some time before in sleep I dreamt one of them...she looked very young, a little fat, I saw her in a rural bengal outfit sitting near a mangrove tree, drunk and the female reporter covering her news was also drunk...and they were very close to each other...and the beauty queen was speaking very fine, but sometimes the language only sounded like "Adrr adrr adrr"...then the beauty queen stood up and went back into the mangrove and returned back more drunk and talked like "adr adr adr" again..