Suicide Attempts

my family is murdering me with ignoring and no support after my two casual suicide attempts since year 2009. They ruin my life with memory wiping medicines since last 8 years..they blame me for so called diagnosed schizophrenia. Neither I have schizophrenia nor any patient needs 15 years long medicines for all life. The medicines make me age rapidly. Nothing is done to wean me off the lowest addiction crude tobacco and calcium lime. I am not managed properly. I am not give motivation, nothing at home in attitude changes. Which treatment happens for schizophrenia in opd to a not expert simgle doctor for 15 years and who just prescribes medicines and experiments with them like toy, and there is never any psychologist support nor councelling nor family councelling..where parents just have made their mind to bear my burden and not really guide me with any problems I have. And when Petra was building in me hope for life, they ruined it and made me write madness on deviant art, because you wont understand my family uses subliminal epithets and gearing up remarks that made me turn crazy.

Its not I that has problem, its my family that has grave mental and behavioural problems, they should not even be living, dont know where they spawned on earth from. They will ruin anything that is good and human, its their expertise. They are caped psychos behind white collar social status. No one will believe me I know, ah as they so kindly feed me. They say I have schizophrenia because I chat on internet, because I have artistic skills, becasue I watched soft porn. etc..I really for this complexity of my deliberate ruining dont think living will ever do me any good nor give me freedom. I am not a suicidal tendency guy, I just want a life where people are normal and reasonable. My parents drive people mad and make them commit mistakes and lose temper, then they themselves act super sane and pass epthets for the victim. Indian, European, no one can be normal in prolonged exposure to these people.