We Dont Know It

often nonwhites making minor offences against European ethics or taking a chance to appreciate white women used to be persecuted in post colonial or colonial times...my parents still hold that as what happend to bhagat singh and triad...

even ivekananda eloped going to Europe...Europeans and whites have a tendency to eventually persecute a nonwhite caucasian calling him a nigger...even I dont know..I would go Europe dancing with a white horse, to meet Petra, only if knew nothing wrong would be done to a nonwhite and non christian caucasoid. But none of us here know it for a fact. My parents hold that I would be pinned down and my arms cut or I be hanged for making white women nude on paper or cursing in my amused madness. In truth I never drew anyONE nude...all are my imaginary nudes. People should be crazy, not insane. I am in real just a block head plainton..I am not modern, I am not a gentleman..I neither want to lust all white women..nor is my driving force in art, lust. I draw and am trying to learn anatomy..as a process..not for lust. I can very well seperate my mind, that when i want sex and when not. I dont seek sex all the time, even if the best women turn me on. I know where I stand. But we here dont know Europe. Its a fact that there is also a lot of inter-racial, subracial racism. Many Europeans still hold us as dogs. I know many Europeans want to accept nonwhite caucasinas also. But its also a fact that whitest nonwhites do the menial work there. But perhaps the world is changing. Perhaps race in a broader sense is a strong power of all of us now, may there be inter mixing or not. My parents nor I know Europe. I have as a human hurt you often through my writing...but in truth I am meekly a lover of all caucasoids. Europeans like everyone pretty, and often being pretty means being caucasoid. But I am a not so pretty and a pretty decayed caucasoid specimen. I am aging and not so young or refreshed. I am not a clown or an acrobat or a dancer or a magical artist, nor a guru. I am just a common and unsuccesfull lame boy in nature. Even I dont know where my destiny leads me. So, WHAT WILL BE?